Looking back on a career of 21-years and counting in a field that I never planned to go into, I feel that something is missing in my life. Drama queens do not get worked up because this has nothing to do with a relationship or choices in that area. It is about what I might have pursued as a career that would have put me in the category of “loving what you do” instead of “doing something so you can do things you love.” Since about the age of 8 and until I made the fateful decision to take a job in my current field in February 1998, I had visions of becoming one of the following: Architect, Egyptologist, Mathematician, Computer Programmer, Writer, Video Game Designer, Medical Researcher, Orchestra Musician (not VSA…more like MOO), Professor in various fields, porn star (paying attention??-Ha!), or a really kind and not douchee trust funder. This missed opportunity is a gaping hole that I hope to fill once I retire from the current career (six years…nobody is counting) and do something that brings me joy and contentment instead of just a paycheck.